Sick.

Okay, I have now officially died. Woke up with a minor fever, headache, sore throat which hurts when I swallow something. This is NOT okay. T__T I still have plenty of things to be done. Shithead T-T Division meeting is on Monday and I have not yet done my 2nd product, and wth I thought I have extra time to finish up Invitation card, Teeshirt and Ticket as well. I'm so gg.com. Oh wells, I hope all the WCs will make themselves useful.

List down the things I need to do before CNYE:
1. Done all P&T stuffs that need to be approved.
2. Haircut
3. New Camera - mostly will be a semi-pro compact one, I've given up on getting dslr cause I need to save my money for future needs T-T. just in case I died, I have money to give to my children or grandchildren or great-grandchildren and great-great.... wth lol. unless dad feels like sponsor me one, hoho, but he will sure say "wait long long", haih forget it. =.=
4. Gorillapod - If I have extra okane, else just buy a simple one or  don't buy at all. ._.
5. Reformat computer - L4D 2 and DMC T_T
6. To be continue.

I seriously need an assistant/secretary to help me organize my schedule T-T My organizer is waayy to messy to be read by humans. People, I'm hiring! XD Please contact me for further enquiry. Hahaha.
I think I better get back to sleep la, and hopefully wake up feeling better.
Babai~

Me want a bunny like this!! Misa need a same species mate. XD

Thoughts.

I'm sorry if I did not meet your expectations, or have disappointed you. But never for once I submit my work without giving the best of me. I work my ass off hoping that it will present out what it should be presenting. Although I'm always saying that I'm lazy and such, but once I get started I will work hard, even if people's response might be "Huh? Is that all?" or "So, is this all you can do?". Yes, I'm an amateur but every pro was once an amateur. I made that decisions because I was hoping the best for the whole thing, I don't want things to fail because of me. I don't need sugar-coated words, I said it not because I'm emotionally disturbed, my brain is too small to save complicated human relationship stuffs. I guess that's what makes me a very unfriendly, unsociable person, I avoid having new human relationship network because of bad memories and experiences. I'm too afraid of being judged at and getting rejected since then. Sometimes I do try, but didn't turn out very well. But recently I came to a realization that I can't possibly live in the past forever, and thus for once in many years I feel like changing.   

I just feel like stating things out. I'm just being too much of a perfectionist, I strive too hard to reach upon others' expectations/needs, I have too many opinions and I care too much about how others think/feel, I'm stubborn-minded and I think too much, it's all my personal problems after all.


Sorry.


We being people, flesh and bone and blood. We reach for things that are impossible and are then upset when they don't happen. We attempt to impress strangers, even though we don't know them and they mean nothing to us. We try to please everyone, even though it makes life hard on us and in some cases bends or breaks our moral code. We try entirely too hard to be the sort of person that we aren't. We try too hard to ignore our faults, and in the process become bitter because of them. We try too hard to be invincible and are thus hit hard when we are forced to face our own mortality and pigheadedness. We try too hard to be perfect, and in the process, severely wound our self-esteem.

The Notebook

Noah: You’re bored! You’re bored and you know it! You wouldn’t be here if there weren’t something missing.
Allie: You arrogant son of a bitch!
Noah: Would you just stay with me?
Allie: Stay with you? What for? Look at us, we are already fighting.
Noah: Well that’s what we do. We fight. You tell me when I’m being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are being a pain in the ass. Which you are 99% of the time. I’m not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a two second rebound rate and you're back doing the next pain in the ass thing.
Allie: So what.
Noah: So it’s not going to be easy. It’s going to be really hard. And we’re going to have to work at this every day. But I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, every day.  ♥

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Just watched The Notebook today, yup it's an old movie. Never had a chance to watch it until today I saw it in Youtube, since the videos are clear so I just straight away watched the whole movie there, didn't take too much time waiting since I'm at home. The story is about the love journey of two lovers Allie and Noah. So sad and beautiful. T-T and the music are well-composed, especially the one at the ending. 5 stars for sure.

My favorite scene, Allie and Noah taking a boat ride together. Noah told her he was going to bring her somewhere, and the two of them went boat riding and feeding ducks, reminiscing about their summer together. so beautiful can! T-T

And everyday he reads to her their story that she wrote hoping that she will somehow remember their past.

"Read this to me, and I'll come back to you."

The last scene where two of them holding each other's hands and died peacefully reminds me of a similar ending in the movie Bicentennial Man that I've watched many years ago, but lately it has been nominated as The Wost Movie of All Time for some reason. Illogical love between a robot and a human i guess. haha. hmm. 

Procrastinating

I'm too lazy to do anything today, must be the cause of the weather! *blames*
It has been rainy and chilly these few days, it makes me wanna stay in my bed all the time and pig out T-T with squishy pillow and coffee and misa and domokun and patrick! XD

I think I better stop crapping and get back to work la. Yosh. =3
Oh, and before I go, I'd like to share some LAME transformer jokes that I've been told today XD
Here it goes.
How do you call the mummy and daddy of a Transformer?

jeng

jeng

jeng..



answer revealed.

Transparent!

There's more. hahas.
What happens when Harry Potter meets with Transformer?    Transporter!
Who is Transformer's sister?   Transistor!
What's the name of an auto bot that transform into a furniture?    Perabot!
What do you call transformer's hair?  Transfer! as in Trans-fur

Don't stab me please if you don't find it funny. XD I've stated clearly at the beginning that it's a LAME joke. XD

Idiots are everywhere.

To someone,
Stop treating me like I'm your freakin girlfriend. We're not in a relationship and I have absolutely no intend to have one with you. Stop worrying about me as I'm not your 3-year-old kid. Your girlfriend, she has been treating you so nice up till now, totally a girlfriend role model can, and she's so sweet and considerate to me and others as well. I don't want to be called as a bitch so please stop doing unnecessary things.

To all dudes/dudettes,
I'm nobody's relationship agency/relationship consultant. Stop message me and tell me you wanna know which dude/dudette on my friend list better, and stop reporting to me your kao lui/kao zai process. Like I care. =.=

Sighs. FML. =.=

p/s:  Esky has updated her blog. T-T So cute, so furrylicious. Looks like noms. XD
Click here to visit Esky.

Bak Kut Teh

===========The Following is Rated N for Non-Halal==========

Pao Xiang BKT is holy-meaty-yummy! ♥ Pao Xiang is a string tie cooking method of pork meat in bak kut teh soup. They said by using this method, oil on the pork can be reduced o_o but I don't know la, as long as it tastes good, everything is fine. :D Today I went for Pao Xiang Bakuteh at Centro Mall, Klang. (of course Klang la, we have the best Bakuteh! lol) The eating environment is nice cause it's in a mall, and there is aircond! haha kinda different from where we usually have our bakuteh, and most importantly, they sell yummy bakuteh! The pork meat is nice and tender, and the soup is thick! ♥ Best part of all is that they serve the soup with a stand containing some burning oil-wax thingy that keeps the soup warm while you're eating, so considerate eh? T-T

Talking about bakuteh soup, I prefer it in bowl than clay pot, because for clay pot, we usually add in mushrooms, veges, dried beancurn strips, internal organs which is cut into strips, and all these kinda ruin the thick meaty taste. XD Bowl bakuteh are usually dark in color, some said it's unhealthy as it is made by boiling the skin until all the gelatin and lard melts, the old fashioned way. :) Delicious, but sinful. T_T but I like the clay pot as well la, cause of the strong chinese herbal taste. Both also I like la, haihs.

This is my ultimate BKT list rated base on my personal preference: :) (5 hearts max)
1. Pao Xiang Bakuteh @ Centro Mall  ♥♥♥♥
As I said, it tastes not bad and you'll have a different bakuteh eating experience, so no harm giving it a try. The bad part is that you'll have to wait for quite a long time cause of the crowd during lunch break peak hour, and if you're late, most of the nice-meaty-thigh-parts will be sold out ._.

2. Underbridge Bakuteh ♥♥
Needless to say, every Klang people should know this shop, its like a legend already. I don't know the exact shop name, but everyone calls it The Underbridge. Serves clay pot bakuteh. The taste is normal for me.

3. Mo Sang Kor Bakuteh ♥♥♥♥
They serve one of the best bowl bakuteh, and the soup is damn dark and thick. One thing I don't like about them is that they're damn kedekup with their soup, good things come hard i guess. sighs. must treasure very drop of it. XD

4. Teluk Pulai Bakuteh ♥♥♥
 Went once only. Serves claypot bakuteh, simple setups and usually very crowded in the morning, if you come late, you'll have to wait for people finish only you can have place to sit and enjoy. 

5. Restoran Weng Heong @ Taman Intan ♥♥♥
Also went once only, serves claypot bakuteh, and they let you add seafood ingredients into the broth. Not bad lah.

6. Ah Tiam Bakuteh ♥♥♥
Not sure about the name. T-T They're famous of their dry bakuteh and they sell seafood at night. No comment cause I'm not a fan of dry bakuteh unless there's a soupy one beside, then it'll be a different story :P
 

There're other random bakuteh shops which i went and don't remember the names. XD Usually i have to go there a few times only I'll go "Oh! I've been here before!" and yada yada yada XD Will update this if I found more nice bakutehs. hoho. 
Till then, bye. XD

Noms!

 

The Happening.

Jealousy, attention whore, ignorance, selfishness, rudeness, they're everywhere, sometimes the better way is to roll off your back and ignore them, you can't have civil conversations with them cause they'll never understand.

January 2010

Behold! This is my Very First Post for the Second Decade of the 21st Centuraay! XD For this holiday, my friends and I have been hanging out quite a lot, not a lot la, but more than we usually do T_T (so sad everyone has gotten a bit busy lately) and it was so nice to see everyone again. T-T and some new faces as well. Welcome to the family! :D

Two Tam-Chiak Faces. Guess who? XD

Yes, I am aware, I've been lazy to blog for the past few weeks. Well, not really lazy, I have had plenty of works to be done and so much fun to have. :D hohoho aaand also I've tanned quite A LOT over the holidays, and now I look so dark. This is so saddening man.. T__T akibat tak pakai sunblock la. I hate putting on sunblock and whatever lotions cause most of them are greasy and makes me feel uncomfortable. But I need them to not to get tanned. T-T how ar? Anyone got nice brand to intro?

Today I woke up at 2pm with my head spinning around, having sinus as usual, and lately I keep on having a dream of me failing a subject! WTFUDGE la! T_T Is this a sign or what! And the moment I signed into my Facebook, everyone were talking about the church bombing incident in KL. ._. and there are rumors saying that the police and government are trying to hide and ban the news. It's so upsetting to see some uncivilized people who do not understand the root of their religion irrationally attack others. Emotion and anger are usually stems from ignorance, no one can be reasonable and angry at the same.

Anyways, if you've noticed, there's only a few photos of what I've been doing for the past few weeks, cause cacat camera cacated and I desperately need a new cam now! T_T

     I Heart You.

But I tell you: Love (agape) your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, that you may be sons of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? —Matthew 5:42-44

Random reminiscences

Today
I saw you and her.
2 years goes by,

It's nice to see how we've developed and grown.
I was naive.

I cried the day you left.

It has died down.

It just don't feel the same anymore.

Unlike the first time I saw you.

We might still share the same obsession.

But someday I'm gonna overtake you.

examstudyexamstudyexamstudyexamstudy

studystressstudystressstudystressstudystress

Holiday Mood

Wooo hoo! Just one more paper to go and I'm fwweeee!

 Time for holiday planning :D Time to leave this mess alone and delete all the unhappy stuffs. Reformat! :D

*Attempting to escape from reality* I know but I just don't care! muahaha

I'm tired of all this shitte. :D

 and.. Christmas is coming! only few days to go.

also to my sis and Jason,
     Happy Birthday in advance!    

     Good night. :)    

*planning planning*

When God decided to give the best gift he could think of, it was not riches, it was not glory, it was not honour, it was not even wisdom. The greatest gift that God gave was himself in the form of his Son, Jesus Christ. This Christmas take some time to truly give more. Give more of your time. Give more of your thoughts. Give more of your heart. Give more of yourself.

We all realise it the hard way.

I've been like uber depressing and fragile since the past few weeks wth

and things just don't seem to get any better.

and I don't know why lately I've becoming more and more sexist,

or to be exact, hating the opposite sex lol wth =.=

actually it started just because some of their species pissed me off

. . . . .

very sweat, I know. (-.-)

I don't know what the hell is wrong with me la.

Someone, Anyone, please get me outta this freaking dark side!

 Shouldn't be pms cause it ended like 2 weeks ago? =.=

anyway, today i found out that by doing certain little things, I gain some satisfaction.

and the certain little things mean

Poking, Digging and Cleaning

very weird, I know (-.-) and please don't think dirty. (-.-)

as I recalled back, I enjoyed doing these things since I was young o_o here goes the list:

1. Poking holes through plastic bags

2. Digging holes at the beach like nobody's business

3. Cleaning holes and narrow spaces

4. Popping plastic bubble wrap

(Bubble Wrap- use to wrap around your new electronic appliances those suspicious-transparent-bubble-sheet-thingy)

5. Poking white foam board

6. Poking/Digging crab holes at the beach, I used to be afraid of them but well, not anymore haha.

and more but these are what I can think of, I'll add them to the list if I remember.

and tell me if u share the same interest,

at least I know that I'm not the weird one XD

Anyway, I realized that even small things can cheer you up.

and same goes to friendship I guess.

We need friends that care with actions, not just some pretty words.

BFF is rubbish if you are never there to share the saddest/happiest moments.

...I'm crapping again, please kindly ignore this stupiak T-T

 

 p/s: argh, I'm craving for sweet things again. :(  

"To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace."
Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

Its a blog thing.

Yvonne Tan You Are Wild and Outrageous

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You are very hyper. You never slow down, even when it's killing you. You're the type of person who can be a workaholic during the day... and still have the energy to party all night. Your energy is definitely a magnet for those around you. People are addicted to your vibe. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way. And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life. You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

I wish I'm that lucky - -"

And who isn't greedy. If you don't fight for yourself, who else will.

but what you greed/fight for will make a different story.

and in reality, things just don't always follow as you say so, and you just can't always have what you've yearned for.

       Sometimes understand that you're actually not that perfect/good can cause a heavy heart that you can never seem to snap out for some time.

I wish I can be stronger, before, now and in future.

I hope this is the path that He has planned.

cause I know that He always does what is best for all of us.

Quote for the day:

Better things are yet to come and greater things are yet to happen, and remember if the world doesn't love you, God Does.